Opening up publicly is slightly terrifying. But pretending everything is great and fine doesn’t work either, it ends up translating as stiff, and distant. So here’s the truth, this past year has been really, really rough. (Let me first preface with- I’m not ignorant to the fact that there are many people who have, and will always have it much worse than I’ll ever know- I just want to be honest here about my own experiences). This past year it was really critical for me to take a step back from the business (i.e. constant stress) and focus on improving myself, my work/ home life balance, and my health.
Working so intensely for so long really had a negative impact on me in the long run. I don’t just mean ‘Im tired’, I mean actual life altering outcomes that I really needed to focus on healing and reversing. Even though I tried to still give the business attention, I could barely muster the physical or emotional strength to design one new item. (Not to mention all the changes beyond my control to deal with – algorithms, having to move studios 4 times, etc. On top of everything else – its enough to make me want to just freak the f* out daily). Because I’ve been in such a weird place, I know that it translates into my content and you can probably feel something is off (I’ve had so many unfollows on instgram – am I even supposed to admit that?? 😳haha). I probably should have just been open and honest from the beginning, but its a scary thing to be vulnerable. You think – ‘why would people want to engage with me if I can’t even hold it together?’. When in truth, I know when someone opens up and is honest I am even more drawn to them. So, I just wanted to say thank you for still being here through the ups and the downs. And honestly, I am still working on centering and balancing every day, I have made so many changes, and I am so excited to be back to working and designing with a fresh vision.